i don’t want to say that i’m not happy for you guys. maybe it’s just me not being happy for myself.
i’ve never been the type to look for a relationship, but when you go to a school like pcc that promotes dating and marriage left and right, i guess it’s inevitable to be a part of that life. and when two of your three ride-or-die girls get guys, i guess it’s hard to not feel like you want one too. but i’ve come to realize that that’s not what i want. if i said i wanted a dude, it’s not because i’m ready or willing to go through that kind of commitment. it would only be because i’m feeling left out. stupid, i know.
but i’ve also come to realize that i’m the one who’s not settling.